Sometimes you just have to open your eyes and wake up. Its as simple as that when it comes to acceptance. We live and we die, this is absolute. What we must learn to accept is how we live and what we've done before we die. When I accepted this path last year, January 12th 2016, I also accepted the guilt from poor decisions I made. What I didn't accept was the outcome everyone else thought I deserved.
Passion is my herald, creativity is my advantage and the will to fight through any pain has been my gift from my creator. So I decided to take on an army, literally. Without disclosing valuable and wonderful tales of the most elaborate and entertaining events in my life and giving away parts of my book, I will give you something like movie trailer, but with words.
I waited two years for a military separation board and it fell on my birthday; January 12th 2016. Perfectly ironic; the rest of my life will be determined on the day I was born. In order for this project to be a classic... it had to happen this way. An Army separation board is hearing slash trial held by a panel of senior sergeants and officers. a prosecutor, and I had a defense lawyer that was equivalent to a public defender. I was being considered for discharge under general conditions for smoking weed back in December of 2013. That was the black and white of it, It was my birthday, I was at 16 years in my career and about to lose it all. I had to do something, I been writing all my life and I had a story to tell so I started writing enemies in the ranks as soon as I walked out the board. I got home, lit a blunt and started writing.
The truth of it was, I was targeted by my chain of command through the devious and well executed actions of my supervisor. A toxic leader that was just plain mad at the fact that I was the only man in her life that she had no power over. Her enchanting advances and normal routine didn't work on me, in fact I saw right through it. The fact that I taught her how to run my battalion and she had no culinary skill what so ever, made her need me which led to her wanting more than a professional relationship. But I had a girlfriend and My boss just wasn't my type. Our professional relationship swiftly became a war and it lasted for two years ending with me being busted one rank. That ruined me and every plan I ever had in life. That one rank mixed with my time in service and a whole lot of Army rules and regulations was enough to fuck me for the rest of my military career.
The outcome was so devastating to my mind it and life I had to take evasive actions just to sustain, I reverted back to what I knew and turned to the streets. Soldier and leader by day, busting my ass to regain my rank and respect. Producer slash poker player, slash caterer, slash plug at night, hustling to make up for the $1600.00 a month loss I just took. I started stressing and eventually smoking marijuana. ( I laugh at the truth on this one) So Now they really had me and I was in serious trouble. Less than 6 months after I lost my rank, I was being charged with use of an illegal substance and in a worst situation. All my enemies were happy and most of my soldiers were disappointed. All my so called friends turned on me and I had to face the reality of the situation everyday for years. But I didn't give a fuck, It was my final hour was on my own. I was left with no choice. I was already giving my best at work. Nothing changed, I naturally out-shined my peers and supervisors physically and technically. The financial loss was killing me, I identified it way before it happened and I wasn't about to be broke. I was already pissed and angry because I was honestly screwed by my chain of command so I used all that negative energy as motivation
All I had to do was survive for a few months and the rules would change in my favor. Once I hit 18 years then the final decision from my board would no longer lay in the hands of the garrison commander which lived up the street, It had to go up to the department of the army and that could take years. Another strong factor that fell in my favor was my entire unit was closing. People was being moved and shuffled around so much my paperwork was either last on someones list or lost. Eventually my unit closed and I was moved and the real war began. Every new chain of command that I had from then on was hellbent on putting me out based on paperwork. They didn't even know me, but my failed piss test preceded me before anyone talked to me. I was out casted before I had a chance to properly introduce myself. And what made it worst was it became so typical that every time a unit closed and I got a new chain of command it got worst! They was treating me like pure shit and trying to do whatever it took to get me out the army with the worst discharge they could give. They was genuinely trying to fuck me and I wasn't having it. Here I stand years later and still here awaiting retirement at my highest rank earned and this war still goes on today and I'm at 19 years and 6 months. They just wont let it go
I cannot begin to explain what I had to endure to get to the position I am in today and you wouldn't believe what I had to do to further increase my chances for success. But most of all, the series of fortunate and unfortunate events that played crucial points, and the people that was put into my life just for small purposes in a large plan that still is unfolding before my eyes leading me to something great. The way the music became a part of the project, and the way I got my first investor and partner. was a gift from god. Everything I needed to accomplish my task was given to me. This first book is more than a auto biography, its a story of triumph filled with the wildest of situations and will describe in detail all the events all the way up to my retirement or discharge. I used vivid flashbacks from my early career to highlight my mind frame and I also kept a journal as I wrote the manuscript starting January 12th 2016 to further capture the pure emotion and bullshit I was going through as I wrote.
During the last five years of my life I have witnessed so called moral and just leaders commit the most foulest of actions just to bring pain in my life as well as other soldiers. It was disgusting and horrible. I felt the pains of love and betrayal, hunger and need. All in which lead me to what god intended me to do. I had to learn to adapt, manipulate and survive until I got everything the army owed me plus more and now I'm going to let the world know what happened before I continue my future as a writer and C.E.O. The best part of it all was the fact that it took everything I ever learned in life, everything I loved to do, every skill and trait to survive this war and in turn landed me in a better position with the enemies in the ranks project. What is next to come from me and government industries after I retire and launch this project will be nothing short of epic I promise. Because the one thing that the U.S army taught me will ultimately be my greatest asset.... I will never accept defeat.
This song is my emotional link to this post
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YCkT4XNdvaA&list=PLKnBr1WV4KS30xfSPlesjngbjJneFtVQB&index=30
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